im missing him

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LVnvikQpEig&feature=related

the song.

come home

hey thre

how are u doing out thre?

the place where u are now,are u happy there?

why are so far away?

will u ever come back?

no right-sorry

these are just my mindless thoughts and irrational feelings.

i know i have no right in his life.

in what he will become,is becomming o what he was before.

maybe before,cause of the thought of losing him,

i have changed into someone he hates.

someone tht made him annoyed or irritated.

i know tht more or less,i am not the same person i was 3 years ago.

but im still the girl whose heart was stolen by him

im still the girl who would give up anything to be by his side

im still the girl tht had lost so much dignity n pride just so tht the person she loves know tht she loved him back.

i have no right of saying how he is being now.

cause i was mistaken.

he is not him.

so,i am sorry for saying tht u change or what not.

the one tht im waiting for will not come

no matter how long i wait

i'll just be visited by more empty hopes, disappointments and

regret.

insufferable

u easily say 'imy' o whatever similar to anyone.

something u said u would never easily do.

i guess i couldnt care less.

cause those mere i-m-y or i-l-y

does not mean anythng.

just mere letters.not a word with any meaning.

thts y i flinch with disappoinment when u gave me those letters

cause u use to hate using them,saying tht if its not a full spelling/word,than its not sincere.

guess u'r not sincere like u use to.

hence, i said,he have vanish.

he is nowhere to be found.

for u are not him.

he was my life.

he was my heart.

he was my air.

i cant be with him anymore

God,i miss him

i would give anything just to spend one last day with him.

i would give up my life to feel him beside me once more.

the pain of these longing and yearning is too insufferable to bear.

never become

he have become someone who he used to hate.

all tht person's attitude tht he once said were stupid,irritating,obnoxious,

the person tht he boldly say he would never become,

he is doing the same thing

bit by bit.

does he even notice?

vanish

ppl say tht if u miss someone,

think bout tht one particular person really hard

n tht person will 'pop-up'.

be it a telephone call,an empty msg o even a mere miscall.

But then,as for me,even if i die from missing n thinking bout u,

i'll still wont be able to hear anything from u.

For u have vanish from existance.

The only remainings of u,

are just those memories we carved out together

since tht November night in '07 until middle of '09.

all i can do is just read back all those msgs u sent me

n reminisce the days we'd spent with each other.

no matter how hard i try,

no matter how bad i cry,

i could never bring u back.

i miss u my heart.

so bad tht i can hardly breathe.