again -.-

on the 20th this month,

was supposed to be our 4-year anniversary.

its been really difficult to get over the day.

really painful.but,i went through good.

but then,

i dreamt of him again this aftrnoon.

just when i've finally able not to think about him,

he creeps into my mind.

again.

then again, like in my previous post,

they say we'll dream of tht person if tht person misses us.

he must've really miss me doesnt he. lol.

why dont just throw that humungous EGO away into tht sea n be a man about it.

if its true lah kn -.-

oh well,i guess its no use crying over something that has left u.

be strong heart!

may tomorrow be better :)

The Script - Before The Worst

everything we talked about is gone

one day.n im waiting for that day.for u to be singing this.

The Script - Breakeven

why am i still not forgetting those things i should?
why does it suddenly came back.all of em.in an instant.
why do i have to keep on wondering bout the what ifs and what could've been?
i know im gonna forget bout it in the morning.
but night falls n it'll haunt me still.
i want to completely wipe out that particular phase of my life.
that particular misery.
wipe out clean so i cant go back down that dark n cold path.
so i wont be able to feel any of those heart stabbing hurt anymore.
but its just so
hard.

dream

is it true,they say

if u dreamed of someone,

it means that they misses u.

i wonder if its really true..

i want to find out,..but our 'circumstances' right now is just..err

lets just say it'll be awkward n not really appropriate -.-

i cant just asked, 'hey,i dreamed of you the other night,did u miss me?'

hah!so not gonna happen.

but i've been dreaming of him 3 or 4 times now.

damn,he must've really missed me.haha!

a girl can 'berangan' cant she? :B

anyways,

havent written in for so long..so many things had happened..

i cant believe i made a guy cried..two guys actually..

im sincerely sorry..

i didnt mean to hurt

n i didnt mean to give hope..

i've told u guys im not ready for anything n that u might get hurt

im just really sorry...

from the bottom of my heart.