old conversations

its been ages since i last open my emails and all.
what suddenly came out was our old conversations *chuckle*
it was on my birthday.but it didnt show the year.
n i didnt feel the need to check,so i didnt.
i just read them.
it seemed (from our conversation) that we were on webcams.
we chatted bout how you were jealous of the korean actors i come to love back then.
and how i tease your manboobs and you were so determined to change them to muscles
*chuckle*
you swore that you would be like dwayne by the end of your 3-year sailing period
and that you said,on our marriage night i would be hugging those tight muscled chest of yours
*laugh* cute. it was cute.
those times were. :')

it was funny. and a bit frustrating.
cause i realize,besides those out-of-the-blue sweet moments,
whenever we were on webcam/+chats,
we always argue and bickering bout the tiniest,silly-est,stupidest of things.
lol.i guess that was to be expected from two immature kids -.-

i miss you.thats a fact.
i still cant get used to the fact that you are not appearing in my dreams anymore
and its kinda weird to be dreaming of someone else now.lols
thinking back, all those old conversation,
if you could,would you take them for granted?
if you were given a choice
would you look back on them and want to re-live the happy ones.
the happy part of the past?

Broken pieces of
A barely breathing story

Just a person.just one person.

I realized that im just a really lonely person.
I wish I could disappear from here.
I wanna go someplace where nobody knows me.
Atleast whenever im lonely, I wouldn't feel as bad.cause I know im someplace new n u're always lonely at a new place.
I wish I could start over.
I wish I could reset my life.
I wish I could be someone else .
I wish I could be happy.
I wish I dont have to resent myself so much.
I wish I could escape from everything.
I just wished my life turned out differently.
I atleast wish I have someone that knows me so well that they know me better than I know myself.
Its just so hard being lonely.
Its just so painful having no one to share your feelings with.
I dont need a relationship.
I just need a friend.

Who are you

Who are you?
Damn I regret not taking you seriously.
If only I looked at u when u were talking to me just now.if only I talked to you earnestly.
I wouldnt have to live with this regret.
U were perfect.
All tht I could've wished for.
Why was I so stupid!
Hope fate would lead me to you again.
Like it did today.
Goodbye mr.perfect.
Hope to see you again.

Amusing

I found it amusing really.that my friends whom he used to loath, are the ones he would contact n would want to find to hang out. Heh.
*smirk*