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something i found .

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God,give me strength

i've never felt so lonely and down

i miss my friends

i so want to see them,even just to cll them

but they are also busy with their exams

my family doesnt even really care bout me

i have no one to turn to

i miss my friends.

they are all that i have now

but they are so far away

my tears kept on flowing

i miss them so much.

i need them so much

GOd,give me strength

give me someone for me to turn to

crossfade-cold

hey,

have u ever heard a song from crossfade, 'cold'?

since he always told me that he didnt want me to know how he really is inside

n how he said there's a reason why he lied and hide things from me

i wonder if this song is a perfect fit.

anyways,the way how the lyrics are in this song,

its really moving..and somehow,it's

really sad

listen!listen! =)

=)

hear that song?

somehow, remembering this song makes me smile

somehow, hearing this song again, decrease the pain i feel

somehow, i dont hate everything that has happen

somehow, listening to this song, even if it brings back my memories with him,

i'm happy

i'm happy to atleast know that he once dedicated this song to me

i'm happy to remember the times i spent with him

i'm happy that after he gave me this song,

i bring my phone everywhere even when i'm showering just to listen to this song

=D heh, lawak.

i dont feel the hurt he gave me anymore

who says love songs only brings heartache? =)

1234,i love you =B

love this song

thanks for making me smile again

so much

there's so many things i wanna tell

so much stories i want to share

but the one who used to listen to everything

is gone

wont budge

its 4 o'clock

n im still figuring out a way on what to do

i've lost so many precious time

i know that but i still cant make myself to move

bakabakashi

the song from the cartoon 'hercules' entitles '

i can go the distance' (i think) kept ringing in my ear since i woke up.

owh, n i didnt go to class at all today

had a shivering fever last night n a painful headache this morning.

bayangknlh -.-

i really dont know what i wanna write

feeling numb again today + still a lingering headache.

owh, and

its good to know that he's going places.

just not here.

not wherever i am atleast.

not ever.

wanna bet?

drop it.

it'll just make me start thinking n having faint hopes.

eventhough its faint hope, the result if it didnt come true,

is devastating. =(

n painful.duuh~

pabo me.

baka me.

not fair

i only wrote in here when i feel depressed or down

i guess thats not really fair

i'll try to write in a cheery entry next time.

once this depression phase i'm in ends.

i wonder when -.-

will

i've already lost the will to learn things bout you

i even lost the will to care

i just hope it lasts long enough this time

smile

i want to smile again

not a fake smile

not a pretend smile

but a genuine smile.

it feels as if its been ages since

i really sincerely smile like i used to

it feels like an eternity of not being happy

or being able to really laugh coz i enjoyed something

i want to do all that stuff again

why is it so hard

its not fair

torn apart

someone told me to regard everything as a dream

it was all just a dream.

but the more i try to convince myself that those three long years

were just a dream,

the more it tore me apart.

numb

numb.

everything feels numb.

moved on

just what i anticipated for;

disapointment, hurt, anguish, loss, depressed.

n i knew all that will happen n yet im still stubborn

what did i expect?

they already said you've moved on.

i knew i was going to hurt even more if i find out myself

but i did anyway

i guess everything has a price to pay.

n mine is an everlasting hurt,disappointment n regret.

not there

i just wish u were here

right beside me, accompanying me

i kept remembering the times when u'r always there for me

helping me go thru each difficulties

i cant even study anymore.

why does this happen each time i have to face my biggest exams?

n each time it happened,

u'r always not there.

always

not lost,just undiscovered

You think that I wanna run and hide
I'll keep it all locked up inside, I just want you to find me

I'm not lost, I'm not lost, just undiscovered
We're never alone we're all the same as each other
You see the look that's on my face, you might think that I'm out of place
I'm not lost, no, just undiscovered

Well, the time it takes to know someone
It all can change before you know it's gone,

I'm not running
I'm not hiding
If you dig a little deeper you will find me

I'm becoming the part that don't last

I never knew
I never knew
that everything was falling through
That everyone I knew was waiting on a queue
To turn and run
when all I needed was the truth
But that's how it's got to be
It's coming down to nothing more than apathy
I'd rather run the other way than stay and see
The smoke and who's still standing when it clears

Let's rearrange
I wish you were a stranger I could disengage
Just say that we agree and then never change
Soften a bit until we all just get along

But that's disregard
Find another friend and you discard
As you lose the argument in a cable car
Hanging above as the canyon comes between

And suddenly I become a part of your past
I'm becoming the part that don't last
I'm losing you and it's effortless
Without a sound we lose sight of the ground
In the throw around
Never thought that you wanted to bring it down
I won't let it go down till we torch it ourselves

And everyone knows I'm in
Over my head
Over my head
With eight seconds left in overtime
He's on my mind
He's on my mind

talk

just wished there's someone to talk to..

for hours non stop

laughing n telling stories..

like what i used to do wif

ruined

i've changed.

but u'r too preoccupied to notice.

u've ruined me.

i will change even more.

thnx to you.

i will not become that pathetic girl u once taken for granted.

that foolish girl u never appreciated.

i owe it all to you.

thnk u so much for making me hate myself n my life.

n for making me make the biggest mistake.

no one

the moment i woke up today,

i decided to take control of my life.

i spent hours doing the first step.

but the moment i received that msg,

i cant think straight.

it slowed me down.

bummed my spirit.

tore my heart.

i need to get myself together.

but i dont know how.

no one to push me

no one to support me

no one to urge me

no one to convince me

no one to advice me

no one to lift my spirit

no one to care for me.

wayward,mindless,trash.

like what i wrote on the right side of my blog,

all of these posts are just my wayward thoughts, mindless dreaming, and trash talk.

empty hopes,shattered faith.

these are just the things that i could do to keep my mind n heart at ease.

the only thing.

since i have no one to turn to.

wont change

u wont change.

u wont change.

u wont change.

u wont change.

if i think like that over and over again,somehow,

i will stop hoping for you right?

make it stop

i want to hate you.

i want to forget you.

i want to stop caring.

i want to stop thinking about you.

i want to stop wondering how u'r doing.

i want to stop everything that have to do with you!

but why cant i do it

not the friend nor the girl

i hate you.

i just hate u.

u'r a liar.

u hide things from me

u stabbed me at the back

u cheated behind my back.

who's she?

wasnt she ur friend's girl?

she seemed to care bout u.

n know things bout u a lot.

what u like n dont

ofcourse,those girls fall for u so easily.

whether already have a bf o not,

o much older than u,

even those who use to like girls .

but they dont get treated the way u treat me.

u treat them so differently.

much better.

i tried so hard to understand u.

i told u everything.

but u wont even say a word bout what ur thinking or ur problems

unlike when u'r wif ur mates.

or ur big SiS.

u tell them everything that u cant tell me.

u even said it urself,she(ur SiS) knows u better than me.

u might as well stab me than say those words.

so thnx.

since i know u'r not going to do anything

o change anything,

dont go and call me in the middle of the nights anymore.

dont go sending msgs with ur IMYs any longer.

u got them girls lining up.

and all ur bestfriends.

i wasnt any one of those category.

im not ur girl nor ur friend.

u dont need me.

hope u'r so happy with what u've done.

happy sailing.

goodbye.