Mixed feeling. Complicated

I prayed,
if he wasn't for me,
then let this feeling subside.
then I noticed
I wasn't that into you anymore
I wondered why at first
but then I remembered my request to Him
He grant my wish.
it's not that I regret it
but I am a little bit sad.
Cause we're not as close as we once were
even though it was so brief
now I don't know how to act
I don't know how to invite you to hang out
I'm not even sure whether you wanted anything to do with me anymore
I'm scared I'd be a burden
I don't want to always be in your way
but then again
you're always the first person that came to my mind
if I wanted to go anywhere,
do anything with,
It'd be you
not because I like you, no
but because you're nice to be around
even though you're so mean to me
blerghh