i've been sick for the past week.
n still havent been better.
in fact,its much worse.
now that i have a heartache to add to the pain.
i've been doing nothing the whole day.
sleep yes.but just to avoid the hungry-ness.
i havent been able to eat coz of the ulcer under my tongue.
n its killing me!
damn.
im just blabbering coz i dont know wht to write.
i want to write somethng good out of this heartache.but i cant seem to find the right words.
who am i fooling?
yes i fucking miss him.
n yes i cant think of how to live wifout him.
but what am i suppose to do when,clearly,he just does NOT CARe.
or that he dont want to.
whats the difference anyway?
he,who coloured my dull life
he,who taught me to break the laws of life
he,who was always there thru ups n down of my oh-so-miserable life
he,who changed me
he,who gave me a chance to find love,feel love
he,who once cherished me
he,who have my heart
he,whom i will never forget
he,who was my first love
him,who i'll always love.
despite the fact that we cant stand each other
despite the fact that we cant be decent with each othr too long and would always end up in a war-like fight
despite all the things he used to hurt me
despite the lies,the pretence,the hiding
i'll still love him
n my heart will always be, for him
i wish he knows that
that in his hand,lies my life
my heart
n that he could easily destroy me
