i cried again
but this time it was different
i went to my friend's room and she showed me her friend's fb
she wanted to show me that there are other ppl wif much worse grief
her friend,lets call him K.
K lost his girlfriend in June last year.
it was a car accdnt.
they were both in the car,and his girl was driving.
he wore his seatbelt,but she wasnt.
so he ended up the one,the only one who survives.
i am told that the girl's parents gave him her diary
so every single day after that he wrote in one entry after another from that diary
as his status
i cant help but cry when i read all of them
he was so crushed,empty,lost.
he replied every entry tht his girl wrote under his status
only God knows how heartbroken he was.
it was really touching
he kept on saying how much he misses her and that she will always be inside his heart,never be replaced.
he kept on saying how much he loves her and that he kept on feeling as if she's with him
he kept on saying how she's the best thing that could have happened to him
how wonderful she was
how he cared for her
how she was his sun,his star,his life
what was really heartbreaking was that when he said that 'we'll be together again'
and that he said to 'wait for me'.
he wrote this note on their annversry saying how painful it is without her and that he was really lonely
saying that he kept on searching for her
i cant help but to compare myself to them
how small was my pain compared to him
and that even i was touched by their story
even i could cry like crazy just by reading her love notes and his replies
thinking back,makes me want to just throw away my pride and ego and go running to him,crying,begging him to hold me and forget everythng that had happened
make me wish i could just press that reset button
and go back to what used to be
they made me want to treasure my relationship even more
made me want to start over and be as happy as i,we, can before its all too late.
i cant help but to wonder,that,if i died,would he grieve for me?
maybe not like K did to his late girlfriend,but would he even?
would he even care?care enough to notice that i was already gone?
hmm
but then again,it is far too late now.
i cant turn back the clock
i cant rewind and
theres no reset button
and that all i could do is reminisce those wonderfully painful and beautiful 3 long years
theres this one love note she wrote bout love being about giving and forgiving and forgiving
theres more to the sentence but i remmbered that she repeated the word forgiving,more than 2 times.
my friend said,K still havent been able to get over his late girlfriend.
and that i should be grateful that he's still living and that i could still pray for his happiness
but i wonder how long does it takes for me.
i'll always pray for ur happiness j.
take care
